after 19

Well today is the day after my birthday and I did most of the stuff I wanted to do. I wish I found a new group of friends, or at least ones that make me question my own judgment. One of my good college friends just got a girlfriend who I think is a complete bitch, and I think to myself they make the perfect couple of two dumb asses. I'd feel sorry for the dude but he hasn't done the smartest stuff in the world during the time I've met him. Well enough of that. Yesterday I played Final Fantasy X, and accomplished something actually instead of just goofing off. I played amp pong with my "friends". Hanged out with some real friends too, these guys have a more sophisticated idiocy which I also tend to have. Slept which is good too. I just need to find my inspiration in life and then achieve all that is set for me, particularly in classes right now. I did want to dye my hair blond like I said before, but the only card that was in my mailbox which two nights ago I finally opened for the first time by myself, "yay me!", was a card from the school, so no money equals no blond hair. This guy who owes me money dropped out of school and so now I have to wait for him to get money from his new job. All in all I miss the people I once knew, and have a hard time understanding the people I know now minus a couple. I thought I needed to get out of Tosa and start fresh, but it looks like Ripon is begging to be added to that list.

Well this is the end of my story for now.

the story today is a sad one

It is my birthday today, I'm 19 now. My day so far hasn't exactly been that celebratory. I was setting the mood up to study and then some people stop that from happening now by taking the couch I was using, to watch a movie. This means that now I have to go to bed even later because of how long the movie will take. This is a waste of my time but well majority rules. I wanted to dye my hair blond today but well I was supposed to get money today but now it is not there and so I will have to wait about a week. I seriously just want to go somewhere else in life, but the only problem that lies in my way is reality. I still hope for blond hair today but I will have to search very deep to find the answer. I find myself like Tidus at Thunder Plains when he says "I didn't understand. But somehow, I felt like I didn't belong. But if I didn't belong with them, I'd be stuck in Spira, alone. And being alone in that place, well, I didn't want to think about it." Only my version would be, I didn't understand. But somehow, I feel like I don't belong. But if I don't belong with them, I'd be stuck in Ripon, alone. And being alone in that place, well, I didn't want to think like that. Its weird how perceptions cloud our judgement in many different ways. There are some dudes who think that they are so good at soccer, and yet one of them isn't as great as he thinks by any stretch, and the other one thinks he is a superb defender, and yet he didn't defend well in overtime and allowed an easy shot at our goal. But what confuses me even more is that our captain always has me play offense, and I've always been more of a midfield or defensive player. But I don't mind, because when I play its fun even if I can't run around the field the entire game. This is my story today, and there is sure to be a lot more action has I have a good amount of homework to get done for both Wednesday and also Thanksgiving break.

so

its been awhile. I was looking at some of SDS's older threads, and I found them very entertaining. The good old days really were good. Greg marrying his TiVo. The wishlist. Having more than a few active members that actively posted. Low expectations. The new members that joined and then you never hear from them again. Greg being lazy and stubborn. The old space theme. The memories I will never forget, until like next week. This gave me a spark in life so I am happy for the laughter caused by wit and sarcasm.

This is my story after all.

I need my own little hideaway from life

One thing I've noticed is that there is one thing all of the figures in my life have that I don't have and that is a hideaway for them to go to, or the ability to scream in public out of anger. Tidus has had many instances where he has been able to hide to, or scream in public. Troy had the roof of his high school. along with the school in one scene. Anakin had the entire galaxy to calm down his anger early on. The more I live life, the more I see a need to have a secret place that only I know of.

Four days...

have gone by and I'm pretty indifferent about it. I've hung out with some really cool people, I found a calling in school by doing something very familar to me. A lot of good stuff has been happening and yet I still see my flaws perfectly. I still find reasons to doubt and hate myself over the littlest things. Life is going greater and yet I still revert to my dark ages. That and cold weather sucks up most of the warm energy I need to keep positive. I need to play Kingdom Hearts I and II along with Final Fantasy X and Final Fantasy X-2.

well its been two days...

since Barack Obama has become the 44th president of the US of A. I got a 25 of 30 on my midterm paper, score. I got a great class schedule. And yet I am not happy. I think maybe its because I have the constant urge to sleep and I am in huge pain in my lower half of my body. I will play Super Smash Bros Brawl later on because I don't feel like switching to the PS2 to play Final Fantasy X.

And another story will begin

I write this as an aspiring hero. I feel that my life right now has me being the bad guy, but I would rather be the good guy. Now the cut out hero which the world has labeled is not the hero I dream to be. Rather I just don't want to be the villain in every one else's story. I gotta find my place, and it will be hard when you're a man of ideas.

And so another chapter is written, and yet the story has yet to begin forming.

And so it continues

So it is pretty early right now and I just got some me time, which allowed me to not worry about the problems in my life right now. Only now I'm back in the real world and all the stress is coming back. I wish I could change who I am, but it seems thats only in fairy tales. I guess I could change a little by becoming more like my inspiration in life, Tidus. Only problem is I am not able to do so at this stage of my story. Its only the second chapter after all. I am a dreamer and I wish I could just stay in one of my dreams. Well I gotta start doing a paper so this story will come to a close.

See ya.

This is the beginning of my story

And so it begins...

Hi I am Greg Seidel and I'm going to relay some parts of my life here on this bloggy. I don't expect much hits but I could care less who reads this anyways. Well right now I am feeling a bit sick, curse the life of school. And I still got to do one paper and start working on a presentation for classes this week. Well the night is still young. I will work on the blog later, I have huge plans on working for this blog.